Performing poetry

Tonight I'll be performing 2 of my poems for an audience in AMSTERDAM!! Yes the capital of The Netherlands! A cool coffee shop where I sometimes hang with friends asked me to perform after they had seen my blog. It's Wednesday so there will be a lot of people and I'm actually kinda nervous, but also excited. I haven't performed before so I searched for some tips and found this site http://www.wbaf.co.uk/hints-and-tips-performance-poetry. I like the tips and think it will help me, perhaps it will help you to. Oh and the poems I'll be performing are Shattering and Never this chill. The owner asked me to do those because he liked them the most and thought people there would like these most. I don't mind and think he's right. Especially Never this chill will do good I think haha.

The first poem I ever wrote

Here is my first poem and a bit about how I started writing. I started writing about a year ago, when I got caught smoking weed. Everyone was mad at me and I felt helpless. So 2 days after I got caught, I smoked again with some friends and when I got home I started writing. It felt great as if I finally could let out what I felt. I wrote shattering.

Shattering

It's like, suddently you're alone
Silent
Nothing matters
Everything slowly dissapears
Nothing matters
Dying within
Everything is shattering
Hearing only the shards hitting the ground..
This sensless stare
You feel it creeping
The end is near
You know it
You feel alone
Entering the zone
It's getting darker
There go the lights
The last thing you think is
Sorry

At that moment I felt like dying and helpless. I could only think about all the stupid things I did and how I let some people down. I thought the last thing I would say before dying would be sorry and so I ended it. I think a lot of people can imagine the moments I describe and also know the thought that if they would die they would most likely say sorry for the stupid things they did in life. At least when my friends read this they understood every single word and also knew the sorry feeling. From that moment on I started writing.